well im writing this thru tear filled eyes, shaky hands, and a broken heart  and the worst part is he duznt kno it     i this was the rite thing to do but the way he is acting it obviously wasnt and im not sure wat to do now   i dont even kno wat to say im at a loss for words rite now     hes never treated me like this before   hes never been so cold    it scares me.....i wish he was here so we could talk this thru but then i dont want to see him bcuz hes mad and i hate it when hes mad at me   the only thing i can do rite now is cry i hav nuthing to hold on to bcuz hes mad and seems so far away i cant take this its too painful i want somone to take away the pain and wipe away my tears....

have you ever been kicked when your down, feel like you've been pushed around, to be on the edge of breakin down, and no ones there save you, if you dont kno wat its like welcome to my life                       ~simple plan~

i dont kno i think i did the right thing today but then why does the right thing hurt so bad, the wrong thing felt so great   i mean i know that what i did was right and that it needed to be done but..ahh i dont know i guess mayb im scared to let go but afraid to hang on like im afraid to hang on because im scared to get close and then be let down or hurt but im scare to let go because mayb he wont come back this time i mean like deep down i probly know he will but i dont know i feel relieved to have let go but yet empty because part of me is gone my heart is torn in two right now i know that this is gonna make things better but i dont wanna lose what i have/had hes the best thing that has ever happened to me...

here i am once again, im torn into pieces, cant deny it, cant pretend, just thought you were the one, broken up, deep inside, but you wont get to see these tears i cry, behind these hazel eyes                                          ~kelly clarkson~